Wow, I can't believe that it is already been TWO years since my husband and I got married. These past two years have been full of ups and downs, heartaches and happiness, deployment and field ops, Bella and Chase, but most of all they've been filled with love.
The love that we have for each other is just amazing. And I know, I know, how corny, right? But I'm serious. Our relationship has seen a lot of things that "normal" relationships don't. But then again, what is normal? Everyone has a different vision of what their normal is, and for us our normal includes a lot of time spent apart instead of together. But to us, that's our beautiful normal. And don't get me wrong, I would do anything to have him home with me all the time, and I know that he would love to be home more too, but right now that's just not possible.
See, for him, his job is more than just a job. It's a way of life. His way of life. Our way of life. He's always been about the military, his whole life. It's been his passion forever, and ever since I met him it's the only thing that I've ever known him to do. We met when he was already in the Marines, actually he had just came home from his first deployment. So for me, this lifestyle with him is the only one that I have ever known.
He still has about three years and some odd months left in this enlistment when he comes home from this deployment, and we've been talking about whether or not he should re-enlist or get out. I have mixed emotions about that. I would love to have a "normal" life with him. (and by normal I mean, not so much time spent apart) But I also know that he has so much passion for what he does and I'm not sure if he will find anything in the civilian world that he is that passionate about. And I don't want him to just settle. I want him to be happy, just like he wants me to be happy.
It's a hard decision, one that will take a lot of thinking, but in the end I know that whatever he/we choose our life will still be as amazing as it always has been.
Our love for each other will always be strong.
I've been taking a lot of time today to reflect back on the past two years and I just can't believe how blessed our lives truly have been. Yeah, we've wanted to have a baby for the past two years but we are learning now that we are so lucky for not having any children yet. We want to be more ready. We want to have more experiences under our belt before we have kids. That one was a big thing for me to understand. I felt like I was broken, and I was always upset that all of my friends were having beautiful blessings from God and Adam and I weren't. But now, I realize how blessed we are for not having a baby in this stage of our life. But we are extremely eager and excited for the right time in our lives for us to welcome our own little blessing(s).
For now though, we are just going to enjoy how amazing our lives already are.
Here's a little flashback at the best day of my life, the day I married my best friend:
xoxox
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